Dreams
Dreams can tell us alot, give us a glimpse of the future, show signs that mean something else or even just entertain. Many people don’t remember their dreams when they wake up.
I am not one of those people. I remember every dream. Most of my very visual and clear dreams happen right before I wake up. This morning I had a very visual dream about an ex of mine that I briefly dated 3 years ago. I was convinced he was my soul mate when we were dating. We haven’t talked since February but for some reason he popped up in my dream.
I was in a huge warehouse looking store that turned into a hotel, (strange I know), and I walked over to this open meeting room and there he was. He was dressed in his usual outfit, white button down shirt and khaki colored dress pants. He came up to me, grabbed my face and started kissing me. He told me had started working for this company doing recruiting, kissed me again and told me he would see me when he was done. Then he was off to work.
That is of course when I woke up. Not sure why all of a sudden he was in my dreams and why it was so clear. Dreams are supposed to tell you something but what is this dream trying to tell me?
Dating in LA
Dating in LA is interesting. You find guys who are good looking that only want you for one thing. You find guys that are really nice and either you are not attracted to them or he doesn’t want anything more then a friendship, because they don’t want anything serious right now.
Sometimes you can find someone that you are attracted to, is nice and feels the same way as you do. You date but then he decides he wants to see what it would be like with someone else. I understand this happens in other states but it seems in LA, the guys are always looking for the next best thing, whether it be their career or personal life.
To be a girl dating out here you have to have a certain look that guys are attracted to before they will even approach you. I had one guy tell me, “your cute and cool to talk to but…”. I had another guy after looking at my picture tell me, “You need to wear a shorter dress, show more cleavage and dye your hair platinum blonde”. Okay I was wearing was shorter then I normally wear and was showing enough cleavage without being skanky. The platinum blonde hair, yeah that happened once by accident and did not look good.
I did have one guy I was dating tell me I am like a ‘wholesome fruit” Yes I was confused when he told me. He said I am wholesome because I am good inside and out. Then he told me he has been meeting girls that are ‘rancid fruit’, look good on the outside but inside they are not are not good. In the end he choose a rancid fruit many times after dating me and it never lasted. I have been lucky that I have been able to date some great guys, but it has never lasted more then 6 months.
I am optimistic that I will find someone that has the same family plan as me and wants to be with me and only me. Even though I had one guy tell me I am the wrong state to find that. What does he know?
Moving is not fun
Last Thursday I moved into my new apartment. It is a cute studio with all of the amenities of my old place, pool, jacuzzi and fitness center. It is also a very secured building, so I feel even safer.
I have finally caught up on sleep. As of Friday morning, I had gotten 8 hours of sleep in 2 days. We were at the old place until the wee hours of the morning making sure the place looked like new. I was exhausted on Friday and my whole body was sore. I still had to go into work and almost didn’t make it through the day.
I am very excited about having my own place for the first time since living in LA. I have had my own apartments when I lived back in the WI but I was in my early 20’s and didn’t really care. This time I am excited about setting the place up and decorating in a way that reflects my taste. I am going for a Marilyn Monroe/Audrey Hepburn black and white theme with a splash of pink.
Now I just have to start unpacking boxes 😦
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