An up and down week
This week a cousin of mine welcomed a baby boy, while another one lost her life. I got a new client while my parent sold our house.
I am healthy and the guy who told me that he is getting married in January to someone else, continues to send me messages telling me that I am not worth it. He said the reason he had to test me was to see if I was worth it and clearly I wasn’t. He tells me that any guy who sleeps with me is thinking about someone else. While I know what he is saying isn’t true, it still hurts. When the words come up on the screen the pain is there. He is someone I have known for 2 years and we had so much fun together.
I know I shouldn’t care what he says and should ignore it but he keeps sending me messages and I want to defend myself. I have to realize it is not worth my time and energy to even argue with him. I have to realize that someone who is worth my time and energy is out there. Someone who thinks I am worth his time and energy.
A week for me
This week I have decided to take a week for myself. No I haven’t gone away to a spa, though that would be nice. I have decided that I am only going walking, to work then home.I have told my friends this but my one friend doesn’t seem to understand that concept. She keeps texting me trying to make plans, going hiking and then a movie on Friday. I have just ignored the texts.
Since starting my own small business I have been busier then ever. I still have my full-time day job where I work 6 days a week and it is starting to have an affect on me. On my only day off and when I get home from I am working on my business. I have also been going back and forth whether I should look for a new job with better hours or stay where I am. After weighing pros and cons and talking with my mentor, I have decided to start looking elsewhere. It is going to be a big step as I have been at this full-time job for almost five years,(most of my jobs in the past I have been at for three and a half years), but in the end I know it is for the best.
Big changes and risks to be taken and I am ready.
Remembering an Amazing Woman
She was an inspiration to everyone that met her. To her family she was the smiley woman full of life. She helped those in need and was always active. Even when she was really sick and had to be pushed in a wheelchair, she still did the Race for the Cure.
If you saw her you never would have guessed she was battling for so many years. When you talked to her she was more interested in hearing what was new in your life. She never wanted to talk about how she was feeling.
When my mom, her sister, had surgery she flew out to help my dad and I out.
She was an amazing woman and will always be remembered by friends and family.
Today she would be 55.
Happy Birthday Auntie.
Moving again?
The other day I wrote about my neighborhood. That same night I came home to find a Notice of Sale on my door. I thought maybe they had sold my apartment. I live in a Condo community so it is expected. When I read through the notice and saw the amount, I realized it is the entire building.
I am still in shock that I was rented this apartment under fraud. The management company knew they were in foreclosure but still rented to me and three other people. I should have known something was up when new management came in a week after I had moved in. I just didn’t think it was something like this.
I have contacted the Tenants Association here in California and waiting to hear back from them so I know what my rights are. Our President did pass a bill, stating in a foreclosure situation, the landlord has to give the tenants a 90-day notice and honor the lease. This at least gives me more time to save and find a new place.
I would like to stay here until my lease is up in October. Yes that should have been another clue that was something was up when they gave me a six month lease.
Not sure what the new owners will want to do. I am probably going to go back to the city I just moved from, North Hollywood. It is a nice area and a lot more going on then in the city I am in now.
I hate the moving process but in the end it will be better for me.
You know you moved to a bad neighborhood when…
The post office tells you they can’t leave your package outside your door because it is a not so good area.
Really? I live two blocks from the Post office, I could walk there, but you can’t leave a package outside my door. I live in a gated secure condo building. I don’t think the homeowners are going to steal my packages.
Then there are the helicopters. Yes I live in LA so I am pretty used to the sound and I also live close to a small airport so that doesn’t bother me as much.
I am a month in at the new place and have noticed some differences.
Old place: heated pool, new equipment in the gym, big bedroom and bathroom, lots of kitchen cupboards, balcony, underground secure parking, and central air.
New place: non heated pool, old equipment in the gym, window air conditioner, very little cupboard and storage space,no balcony, outside gated parking, and dogs that bark a chorus.
The new place does have good things though: big laundry room, condo community so all homeowners, pool area is huge with bbq grills, and the vanity is separate from the rest of the bathroom. I am also able to decorate the way I want because it is my own space. And yes I am happy that I didn’t have to give up the extra amenities of the old place.
I have put up my recently purchased posters of Marilyn Monroe, Andy Warhol and Audrey Hepburn on the walls and it is finally starting to feel like home. I finally feel like a grown up.
Good things have been happening too since the move, so things are looking up!
Dreams
Dreams can tell us alot, give us a glimpse of the future, show signs that mean something else or even just entertain. Many people don’t remember their dreams when they wake up.
I am not one of those people. I remember every dream. Most of my very visual and clear dreams happen right before I wake up. This morning I had a very visual dream about an ex of mine that I briefly dated 3 years ago. I was convinced he was my soul mate when we were dating. We haven’t talked since February but for some reason he popped up in my dream.
I was in a huge warehouse looking store that turned into a hotel, (strange I know), and I walked over to this open meeting room and there he was. He was dressed in his usual outfit, white button down shirt and khaki colored dress pants. He came up to me, grabbed my face and started kissing me. He told me had started working for this company doing recruiting, kissed me again and told me he would see me when he was done. Then he was off to work.
That is of course when I woke up. Not sure why all of a sudden he was in my dreams and why it was so clear. Dreams are supposed to tell you something but what is this dream trying to tell me?
Moving is not fun
Last Thursday I moved into my new apartment. It is a cute studio with all of the amenities of my old place, pool, jacuzzi and fitness center. It is also a very secured building, so I feel even safer.
I have finally caught up on sleep. As of Friday morning, I had gotten 8 hours of sleep in 2 days. We were at the old place until the wee hours of the morning making sure the place looked like new. I was exhausted on Friday and my whole body was sore. I still had to go into work and almost didn’t make it through the day.
I am very excited about having my own place for the first time since living in LA. I have had my own apartments when I lived back in the WI but I was in my early 20’s and didn’t really care. This time I am excited about setting the place up and decorating in a way that reflects my taste. I am going for a Marilyn Monroe/Audrey Hepburn black and white theme with a splash of pink.
Now I just have to start unpacking boxes 😦
Finally Recovered
The munchkin dancing
My trip home was good and relaxing. The flight there wasn’t so great as it was a red eye and somehow I got seated in the last row aisle seat. (Now I remember why I don’t fly Northwest).No I did not get much sleep. But I was very excited when I got past the security checkpoint at the airport and I saw little man running up to me saying “Auntie!!” Yes the nephew was very excited to see me and as always was my little buddy the whole time I was in town. He also helped throw things away when he cleaned out my storage unit that I have had in Wisconsin for the past 5 years. Throwing away things is very cleansing and I seem to be doing a lot of that lately with moving.
Last Saturday night was the night with the girls. Our big sorority alumni weekend. I had a great time catching up with friends I hadn’t seen in a few years and also made new friends with younger alumni and some of the collegiate members. The night was filled with laughs and fun, in fact we are still talking about that night. Sunday was the baby shower for my friend then the rest of the day was spent like most Sundays in college were, sitting on the couch watching chick flicks.
Before Mom had to take me to the airport we met up with my lil bro for an early dinner. After we left the Olive Garden, mom drove me down and started crying as we saw the signs for the airport. She gets like that every time and it is sweet. She does miss having her baby girl in Wisconsin but knows why I am out in California and supports me 100%.
It was a very relaxing trip and am glad I was able to get away before the big move next week. I am still a little stressed though trying to make sure everything is taken care of: renting the UHaul, changing my address with companies, getting boxes, and of course packing. I am also trying to find a new laptop.
If I can get through till the end of the month, I will be happy.
Oh and Frontier Airlines, I love you. You make flying a great experience.
Visiting Home
I leave tomorrow night to go back to Wisconsin for a few days. I get excited to go back because generally I only go back a couple times a year. My nephew can’t wait to see me. Him and my brother are going to come pick me up at the airport very early in the morning.
Going home is a time for me to relax. It is especially good this time because with all of the stresses of moving I need to get away from everything for a while.
I am also going to a sorority function. Two days with the girls of TPA. There will be girls there that I haven’t seen since before I moved to California.
I am also going to get some good writing time in. Mom and Dad don’t really go out much so I will be spending lots of time at the parents house.
Hoping I can get further in the script I am writing for Script Frenzy.
The Packing Begins
Since I only have so many days off before the big move on the 30th, I have been trying to fit it in when I can. Normally after work I am tired but since I have gotten more writing work, I have been staying up a bit later then normal. I have realized though that I don’t have much time to pack everything before the 30th rolls around. I only have a couple of days off from work before then and I am going back to Wisconsin for a week to clean out a storage unit I have had for the four and a half years I have been out in California. Yes that’s right I have been paying for a storage unit for almost five years. I know I will probably not need most of the things in there but there will be a few things, my skis and my books.
Yes my books. They say a writer can never have to many books and I am proof of that. I realized that tonight as I started packing some of them. I packed most of them in one of the bigger boxes I got from work. I filled the box up with as many as I could. Yes I know it is going to be a heavy box and I will need a couple of strong men to help me (which I am still recruiting), but it will be managable. I realized in the past three years I have helped the sales of both Borders and Barnes & Noble. I can never pass up the coupon I get in my email from Borders or the clearance books on barnesandnoble.com (I still have two boxes from B & N from the last time, 25 dollars gets you about 8 books). When I first moved into this apartment I didn’t have quite the number of books I do now. I had enough to warrant buying a bookcase. One I put together myself but later found out from the young guy I was dating that I put a shelf in the wrong way and he had to fix it for me, (I got teased about that one for quite a while). In the past three years I have filled up that bookcase so much I have books stacked in front of books. Yes I still have more books to pack, so I have cut myself off from buying until after I move into the new place.
So much packing, so little time.
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